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Dark Sometimes

On By rantandrave3In poetry, Uncategorized, writing1 Comment

I guess I can get dark at times
I guess I’m not just all right
I think that you should know my fate
my life of hate
my broken heart’s state
I’m not pretty
I guess that’s me
but my soul is limitless
there is beauty
deep inside
where you can’t see
there is beauty inside of me
my monsters are gorgeous
my demons are free
those are the things that control me.
or help me to keep control
help, to slow my roll
to keep it chill
relax and rest
take a breath
not worry for one minute
just one
one
singular
one moment
one minute
that’s all I need
to be freed
but I guess I get dark sometimes.

©C.O’Connor, 2018

A little bit of my darkness

On By rantandrave3In Rants, UncategorizedLeave a comment

My hands are shaking today. I hate the shaking. It’s like the set up to the downfall of my mind. The doors are rattling and everyone is screaming. The hinges have loosened and the cages holding in my demons aren’t as strong as they used to be.

My fucking demons are screaming at me.

They hate me. They’ll ruin me if given the chance.

But sometimes I wonder what would happen if I let them out. Would they really ruin my life or show me the life I could have? Could live? Should be living?

A little chaos could be good for the soul.

The bottles that hold my emotions are breaking. They’ve been packed in too tight. It looks like a mess in there. Be careful of the broken glass!

I’m losing myself!  OR Am I finding myself?

Was there really every anything worth saving? Is there anything left worth salvaging? I think my demons are laughing at me now. They know I’m losing it. That small bit of control I still had. Why am I so afraid of losing something I was never proud of to begin with? Was I ever proud of myself?

Rarely… only when I let the demons out.

©C. O’Connor 2016

#4

On By rantandrave3In poetryLeave a comment

My name is Darkness

My name is Fear

My name is anything that haunts you dear.

My name is Hate

My name is Cold

My name is all your nightmares hold.

My name is fixed

My name is all

My name is in every lost soul’s call.

I am here

I am there

I am within the darkest stare.

I am the shadows

I am the light

I am the thing haunting your dreams at night.

My name is forgotten

My name is unknown

My name is in the shiver on your neck when you think you are alone.

©C. O’Connor, 2016